another level

Recently, I'm kinda losing my patience. It seem staying away from me these days. I speak loudly, crack back when sis and mum grumbling about me. I got many things worry in my mind, so seem like nothing suits me. I'm easily to get impatient with my family's act, friends' deed, and even myself.

Holidays...I spent too much on entertainments. Or maybe I don't want to face the assignments, it is exhausting. Now left one week to finish it. Oh devil, u must be enjoying ur moment. I'm glad to spend the precious time with you...>~<

I think about my present and future. I searched many awesome artworks and tutorials,company and studio, realising I'm really really tiny. I'm getting not enthuse for what I'm doing currently. I can't do what i want to do. I feel like many little obstacles are making my plans upside down. The unsastifying result, making my mind fly to the words "give up". "Give up",I never spell this to my heart. May be it is not giving up, I'm escaping. I'm losing confidence.

I wonder, what I actually want to do, and what I like to do, I mean in art. What is my job in my future? Am I going to draw comic? or concept art? or making diy based on my illustration knowledge? I'm worrying and start to hate myself why my skill, my speed and my idea is still not up to the mark.

Then, I recall what lecturer said to us. It is not the question you can't make it, it is the question do you want to make it. Yes, I want to make it. So, just do it! To success, we must always improve ourselves,attitude, knowledges, skills and more and more. Be responsible to your decision. We need not to worry if we are really good. It is normal to worry about future, especially at this level, but why not we do it and put many effort on it rather than worrying? Time is precious. Appreciate the good opportunity.


Now,the thing I need to do is to improve myself. New cc, is generating...

Don't forget to love yourself and people who love you too.

tag!

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
^^
2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
new day^^

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
long time din take photo,forgot...

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
no...u knew it xp

5.Will you ever donate blood?
haha...underweight! and i'm not ready for it

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
good friend la

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
of course not, evil deeds....

8.What does your last text message say?
Happy birthday,daddy^^

9.What are you thinking right now?
my assignments T.T

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
definitely yes...

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
12 on the bed, chat till 1 sth with sis...

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
guess wat,i'm wearing sb pj shirt

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Ya

14.Who was the last person who text you?
syn

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1. ayam ( update ur blog leh...)
2. cicak ( update ur blog oso leh...)
3. kaffy
4. elise
5. alex_sio
6. tifi
7. uncle ron
8. reena
9. 531
10. niewei

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
......she hasn't told me the truth...

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
wahahahaha....waliao!!!! impossible!!!

18. What is no.1 studying about?
f4...smart but lazy buddy...

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1st prsn everyday,some recently lo...some long time din chat...

20. Is no. 4 single?
no gua...r u single? hehe...

21. Say something about no.2.
wow...rock? music n art lover...有性格!

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
你们受jor咩刺激...hahaha

23. Describe no.9.
sha po! fun n hardworking in her study...

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
without thinking, buy popcorn and promote this movie to my friends...hahaha....joking la

25. Do you like no.8?
kind of nice friend^^

is your turn!

thank you,dad.

前几天，我一直在想父亲节的这一天我会对我爸说什么-ya，父亲节快乐。说这句话，我不快乐，我爸也是吧。

我们很久没有谈话。一个星期忙起来或许见不到2次面，即使谈话，也可能只是在工作上的范围。 想想多久没一起吃饭，没一起看戏，没问我学校的事，真的很久了。看到朋友和他们的爸爸有说有笑，听到他们有趣的故事，我和我爸为什么不可以这样。有些会给爸爸唠叨，就会开始破口大骂，埋怨。我会希望我爸会和我多说两句话。

今天早上，起来又见不到你，你又早出了。

发简讯几乎是我们唯一联络的方式。我鼓起勇气，跟你说了我的心中话：

daddy,happy father's day. H1N1 is now serious spreading in m'sia, must take care of urself. We chat less and less day by day, I want u to know more about me, as i do. Can v chat more after 2day? 2 sentences better than none...at least we try...gambateh, my baba^^

等了一会，手机简讯声响了。该不会又是一句ok吧?

没想到我爸好坏，叫眼泪流出来凑热闹：

谢谢你，tq. U can talk anything to baba.Have problem just. What so ever u can always share with me, i'm very understanding but keep silent only, k?


Dad,thank you.

This is very simple,no present, no celebration, but a meaningful father's day to me.

你愿意为我改变吗？

我的心一直住着两个人。一切都揭穿了。

我想跟之前的他说声对不起，我伤害了他。

看了的朋友，我知道你们会骂我，为什么这样？
一脚踏两船!!
我只想说，感情不能勉强，我希望你们会明白。
我认识他已经四年了，在一起半年，我真的很爱他。
我希望我的选择不会错，希望你们支持我，帮我改变他，好吗？


给你：
我的第六感说服我，这次我又bingo了。

没错，你又从外国寄来了一架飞机模型，这次是意大利的。
我也不知收到多少架了，
美国、英国、加拿大、香港等国家的，我都有。

你啊，真的很难约。时常都要到处飞，忙开会，
有时候就算约好了，却因为班机延迟，而不能赴约。
你好久没陪我了。
不过我很体谅你的工作，
所以我一直愿意等你。

那天我在msn问，
不如我们自己试试飞机的引擎，反正你也拥有一架私人飞机？
而且我也没坐过，
你也常说要安排时间然我体验在空中飞翔的感觉，
你却狠心让我苦等这一天。


你一口气说好。
我说: 真的吗？这次没骗我？安排好了吗？
你笑了，说你下星期放假，可以陪我。
我也笑了。
我真的满怀期待，和你在一起，
享受我们的二人世界。

难得有一天我们可以一起约会，
一起驾着飞机，
看看早晨的美丽，贴近绿色的心灵，
感受即将消失的清新空气，
欣赏微风吹过的白云，静悄悄的千变万化，
享受阳光的呵护。

现在又泡汤了...
我在想，你真么那么忙啊？
开会真的比我重要吗？
我说你，你就笑笑: "对不起嘛..."
我还可以忍到今天，看来我真的很爱你。
现在，我却质疑。

我们认识时，你的魅力带走了我的心跳，
我愿意劈腿，伤害了他的心，
全因为你。
但是我每次看见你送我的飞机，我想，
我的选择正确吗?
我背着所有人的眼光，父母的反对，
选择和你在一起。
值得吗？我都一直认为值得。
之前的他，不管对我很好，
我还是毫不留情的向他捅了一刀又一刀。
别人说，我是贪你的钱，所以才贴近你，
我知道你不是那么想。

现在，一切都变了。


我不懂我还能撑多久。


你愿意为我改变吗？


你就是这样，笑笑地，你有心要改，却改不了。


我是认真的。
你愿意为我改变吗？






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老杺，不要再放我飞机了啦!!!
天天酱多会跟周公开！
今天起不来，明天就早点起来跟我去跑步啦!!!







哈哈...不要打我...XD

(我没有一脚踏两船啊~~~我很专一的，
拜托不要乱讲啊，我只是制造效果而已～～～)

这一段友情，爱情很难得

In a relationship, there are many obstacles for couple to go through. Sometimes, a relationship ends up with non-stop quarreling. However, the power of believing, loving and caring is always stand for these.

That was a big big suprise, especially for a girl. If your boyfriend go to study oversea, he plans to come back one month before the day he tells you, everyone knows about it except you, and yet he suddenly appears in front of you, what is your response? I think most of you will fall into tears and feel so touch...

That moment, was speechless, blessedness .

When couple's and friend's love are surrounding 4 good friends, it is one in a thousand. It is worth to do everything for each other to see them happy everyday. Sometimes, we may hesitate whether want to give up and set ourselves free from a relationship, but by the time we are still believing, we still love him or her, we will " keep holding on, because we know we can make it through".

Gambateh for love! ^^

2 weeks then, back to hell~

I couldn't submit all my assignments yesterday at 3.00pm, still left 2 unfinished artworks. I also forgot to return the book to library. When the time I realised, library has closed. And yet, I only remembered I forgot to submit one finished character assignment when I was on the way back to home from office at about 8.00pm! Without thinking, I quickly sms to kc. Luckily, kc said i can submit that piece only on Monday. So "dai tou ha"... but I will still finish those 2 assignments and let him marks even though he may not include it in my final mark. (May be he will...haha) So, Monday I have to go college again...oh sien...

This 4 extra weeks were so tiring, and finally I can rest now for 2 weeks. I don't feel very excited because this is only a little bonus in my life, after 2 weeks, I have to back into the hell again...Now I only understand what sy feels...but i willing to, that is what should i do to achieve my dream.

Holidays, I do have a lot of plans, but seem like hanging, 2 weeks time is too short man!!!


I hope I enjoy my 2 WEEKS holidays... IS 2 WEEKS holidays... yes is 2 WEEKS... 2 weeks...
y not 2 months...yes, it is 2 weeks...ONLYYYYYYYYY.....!

Vote For Earth ! !

VOTE EARTH

YOUR LIGHT SWITCH IS YOUR VOTE

This year, Earth Hour has been transformed into the world’s first global election, between Earth and global warming.

For the first time in history, people of all ages, nationalities, race and background have the opportunity to use their light switch as their vote – Switching off your lights is a vote for Earth, or leaving them on is a vote for global warming. WWF are urging the world to VOTE EARTH and reach the target of 1 billion votes, which will be presented to world leaders at the Global Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen 2009.

This meeting will determine official government policies to take action against global warming, which will replace the Kyoto Protocol. It is the chance for the people of the world to make their voice heard.

Earth Hour began in Sydney in 2007, when 2.2 million homes and businesses switched off their lights for one hour. In 2008 the message had grown into a global sustainability movement, with 50 million people switching off their lights. Global landmarks such as the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, Rome’s Colosseum, the Sydney Opera House and the Coca Cola billboard in Times Square all stood in darkness.

In 2009, Earth Hour is being taken to the next level, with the goal of 1 billion people switching off their lights as part of a global vote. Unlike any election in history, it is not about what country you’re from, but instead, what planet you’re from. VOTE EARTH is a global call to action for every individual, every business, and every community. A call to stand up and take control over the future of our planet. Over 74 countries and territories have pledged their support to VOTE EARTH during Earth Hour 2009, and this number is growing everyday.

We all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations.

VOTE EARTH by simply switching off your lights for one hour, and join the world for Earth Hour.

Saturday, March 28, 8:30-9:30pm.

for more information about Earth Hour , pls go www.earthhour.org