人生有高有低，
高潮时，要把握机会，
低潮时，要思考，为自己制造机会。
面对着电脑，手不停地画，
目标只有一个，一定要过关。
无论有任何的困难，都要把这一切划上句点，
不完美也好，却没有遗憾。
这一夜过去,我尽力了，你却在这时候止步，
我预料着逃不过这一节。
担心你。
有了一次，就会有下一次。
有时候你的举动让我血液循环，有时候我面目表情，有时候很疯狂，
每一天都不一样，
唯有一样没变，只要一天我们还在这里，
你有困难，我一定会尽力帮你过关。
你说，不必担心我，我没事。
你认为我会放弃吗？
或许你从小到大被过度保护，
有时候遇到小小龙卷风，就是那个样，
皱眉头，眯眼睛，抓头发，乱喊乱叫。。。
以前觉得没什么，日子久了，麻木了，现在却开始反感。
我不太懂。很难吗？
我的口水应该把你疲累的身躯淹没了，剩下你脑袋的迷宫，
让你用我给你的bonus，慢慢闯关，走出迷宫。
机会不停地和你招手，你没跟他们握手拥抱，
意味回眸。
就这样，跌倒了。跌了无数。
你站起来，需要适应的时间比人多。
思考，你有，可是走不出来。
每开始适应后，
恶性又再次侵犯，你又再次抵抗不了，
用回同样的策略，享受同样的结果。
不是每一次都那么幸运，
困难是难非难，在于你怎么去衡量。
思考得多，却没有标准的重量，
只会让我们止步。
这一次后，你要逃跑，
逃出19年来经营的保护区，体验长大，
留下更多脚步的烙印，而且每一步都要那么值得回忆。
加油。
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
every dream is an omen
I dreamed. The dream is still vivid,i still remember the important part, because it is related to rat, me, my love partner, my best friend, and even famous singers. I think that is a message for me, so when i woke up, i quickly search it online to interpret it. Mum said the the message behind dream u dreamed in the morning is usually very accurate.
My dream: 1st, very funny. i dreamed about AVRIL LAVIGNE! It seems like i'm watching mv. She was rowing boat to the seaside. It was an island. There was a constructing building. There were stalls selling food. Then, Avril gone,my friend came. ONe of the stall was actually using cream to make flowers,some beautiful things.Then, I said to my friend:" very creamy!" (rejecting)
Then day turned dark. Both of us walking all along the road, chating gently. Walked and walked, suddenly got function. We walked in. Then I saw zhen. I was trying to ignore, like very emo.
We went toilet, funny, my friend enter the man's toilet. Luckily, no one inside. Then I gt sms from zhen. is like " we need to talk". Then, in our chat, he said i change to be less talkative recently. What is very funny is, he suddenly turn into 潘玮柏, saying hi to AKON at the stairchase. Then, I said nothing and walked away to toilet.
In the toilet (this is the climax), there was something jumped to my shoulder! It was rat! I was holding it, and couldn't let go. I tried to scream loud, but the voice was not coming out! I don't know whether i was bitten by rat, then i let it go, now only i screamed... Then i woke up.
And you know what, the dream interpretation, it is quite accurate...
These are the interpretation,i'm lazy to conclude it all:
Rat:
A rat is a sign that negative influences are undermining your vitality. Dreams about rats and mice usually reflect the worries which are "gnawing" you. Seeing a rat: you will go through some unpleasant experience with other people. If you are bitten by a rat in the dream, be aware that one of your friends is determined to ruin your reputation. If you catch or kill a rat, it is a warning about trouble in your love relationship or friendship.
To see lab animals in your dream, suggests that an aspect of yourself is being repressed. You feel that you are not able to fully express your desires and emotions. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to experiment with your fears, choices, and beliefs. Try not to limit yourself.
Best friend :
If there is some situation or incident that has happened recently then the appearance of a best friend maybe very much linked to that. But if that is not the case then their appearance maybe symbolic. In such cases the best friend can often symbolise your ideal situation or preferred outcome.
Beach:
To see yourself working on a beach shows that you will soon be involved with a job, or project, that will be demanding of you in both time and effort. If you are just relaxing on a beach this shows that you value the calm feelings that family get togethers lend to you, and if you see yourself sitting on a beach and letting the sand run through your fingers that shows that you are running out of time on something important due to idling your time away.
To see yourself working on a beach shows that you will soon be involved with a job, or project, that will be demanding of you in both time and effort. If you are just relaxing on a beach this shows that you value the calm feelings that family get togethers lend to you, and if you see yourself sitting on a beach and letting the sand run through your fingers that shows that you are running out of time on something important due to idling your time away.
Building:
If the buildings you dream of are stately and majestic you could have to much ceremony in your life and not enough everyday good people attitudes. If the buildings are beautiful with lots of green lawn around them then are you destined for a life of plenty. Should the buildings be dilapidated and in ruins then this will show that you will have business or love problems with the likelihood of loss very high.
If the buildings you dream of are stately and majestic you could have to much ceremony in your life and not enough everyday good people attitudes. If the buildings are beautiful with lots of green lawn around them then are you destined for a life of plenty. Should the buildings be dilapidated and in ruins then this will show that you will have business or love problems with the likelihood of loss very high.
Boyfriend:
Dreaming about your real-life boyfriend can mean he's on your mind for a particular reason right now. Pay attention to what's happening in the dream for cues about your thoughts and feelings toward your boyfriend or the relationship.
Singer:
To see a famous singer in your dream, represents harmony and some divine influence or vibrations. It indicates glorification of the human spirit. Consider also your general impression of this singer and how those specific qualities may be triggered by someone or some situation in your waking life.
To see a famous singer in your dream, represents harmony and some divine influence or vibrations. It indicates glorification of the human spirit. Consider also your general impression of this singer and how those specific qualities may be triggered by someone or some situation in your waking life.
wooooowwwwww.....
It is accurate that i have somthing worry in my mind. i dream about my friend who is also facing mostly the same thing with me. I'm unable to fullfill my desires. Tons of homeworks making me crazy.I'm hot temper recently, not good people everyday. I didn't go out with my bf to celebrate 1st anniversary for some reasons and i feel not really happy with it. God is telling me. I shouldn't limit myself.
Somtimes, don't ignore ur dream, it mb a msg to u.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
bored...
Whenever we are talking about haunted house, my pbsm gang will be chating it tremendously. It was very unforgotable. The years before pbsm did it, haunted house was incharged by scout. And in 2006, our application was proved. That was the 1st time for pbsm, sure we wanted to make it the best to prove no only scout can make it,but we are, and better than them(students always think that sb's pbsm is lou zi...). That was exhausting, but luckily, we have a very excellent team,always come out with awesome ideas and designs, responsible and very dedicated. I really miss the moments...It was very very fun when we scared people until they cried,and that means our haunted house is very successful,even until now, we are still the best. After we graduated, we always hope to see our juniors do better than us.
Today is sb's canteen day,and I went with etek and lalat just to see how is the haunted house going this year. Cicak sick and monkey works, so not going. When we step in, lalat kept searching the toilet. haha,she went here and there, downstair blok d 's toilet locked, then went upstair, still locked, after she went 3 or 4 corners, then only she successful found the unlocked toilet!XD
Outside haunted house,what a long queue! yes, not at all surprising. we just decided to get in when the "ghosts" are tired, haha... Walking around the school,chat with our teachers, the school is different. Students nowsadays are no disciplined and like kids. It was mess! I don't mean that they can't play around, but can they follow and respect the basic sch rules? They are really like kids... And the sch mural,oh god...i beh tahan lo...it is not creative, not impressing and is messy. I know, most of the students don't like to draw mural, so just cin cai la.And you know, really cin cai dao...Ya,I know I'm art lover, but I'm understanding and not expecting the students to draw very very geng, just can they be a bit creative? Just don't make it the whole sch's mural are almost the same style! Don't tell me "i'm not creative".If I ask u,whether you do research and really think about it, u sure die standing.
That's fine. Then we saw something really "mengesiasuikan"(cicak created), the scrawled mural! I knows this is normal for some schools, but for us,we think that that is embarrasing and students are uncontrollable! And then I asked my sis, she give me a very good answer:"that is student's message wall"! Waliao eh...
Today is sb's canteen day,and I went with etek and lalat just to see how is the haunted house going this year. Cicak sick and monkey works, so not going. When we step in, lalat kept searching the toilet. haha,she went here and there, downstair blok d 's toilet locked, then went upstair, still locked, after she went 3 or 4 corners, then only she successful found the unlocked toilet!XD
Outside haunted house,what a long queue! yes, not at all surprising. we just decided to get in when the "ghosts" are tired, haha... Walking around the school,chat with our teachers, the school is different. Students nowsadays are no disciplined and like kids. It was mess! I don't mean that they can't play around, but can they follow and respect the basic sch rules? They are really like kids... And the sch mural,oh god...i beh tahan lo...it is not creative, not impressing and is messy. I know, most of the students don't like to draw mural, so just cin cai la.And you know, really cin cai dao...Ya,I know I'm art lover, but I'm understanding and not expecting the students to draw very very geng, just can they be a bit creative? Just don't make it the whole sch's mural are almost the same style! Don't tell me "i'm not creative".If I ask u,whether you do research and really think about it, u sure die standing.
That's fine. Then we saw something really "mengesiasuikan"(cicak created), the scrawled mural! I knows this is normal for some schools, but for us,we think that that is embarrasing and students are uncontrollable! And then I asked my sis, she give me a very good answer:"that is student's message wall"! Waliao eh...
Wasting our time there, bored...if not for haunted house,we already go somewhere else,better than staying there. Finally, no more people queue up,so we entered the house. Ya, very dark, and we were a bit scared at 1st. But then, we laughed and laughed at the ghosts,it was funny... it was about 1 minute,rm5 flied... It was not impressing us, Anyway,u guys still scared people until cried successfully. Good job, but still can improve.^^
In conclusion, what a bored canteen day...=.=
Friday, June 26, 2009
another level
Recently, I'm kinda losing my patience. It seem staying away from me these days. I speak loudly, crack back when sis and mum grumbling about me. I got many things worry in my mind, so seem like nothing suits me. I'm easily to get impatient with my family's act, friends' deed, and even myself.
Holidays...I spent too much on entertainments. Or maybe I don't want to face the assignments, it is exhausting. Now left one week to finish it. Oh devil, u must be enjoying ur moment. I'm glad to spend the precious time with you...>~<
I think about my present and future. I searched many awesome artworks and tutorials,company and studio, realising I'm really really tiny. I'm getting not enthuse for what I'm doing currently. I can't do what i want to do. I feel like many little obstacles are making my plans upside down. The unsastifying result, making my mind fly to the words "give up". "Give up",I never spell this to my heart. May be it is not giving up, I'm escaping. I'm losing confidence.
I wonder, what I actually want to do, and what I like to do, I mean in art. What is my job in my future? Am I going to draw comic? or concept art? or making diy based on my illustration knowledge? I'm worrying and start to hate myself why my skill, my speed and my idea is still not up to the mark.
Then, I recall what lecturer said to us. It is not the question you can't make it, it is the question do you want to make it. Yes, I want to make it. So, just do it! To success, we must always improve ourselves,attitude, knowledges, skills and more and more. Be responsible to your decision. We need not to worry if we are really good. It is normal to worry about future, especially at this level, but why not we do it and put many effort on it rather than worrying? Time is precious. Appreciate the good opportunity.
Now,the thing I need to do is to improve myself. New cc, is generating...
Holidays...I spent too much on entertainments. Or maybe I don't want to face the assignments, it is exhausting. Now left one week to finish it. Oh devil, u must be enjoying ur moment. I'm glad to spend the precious time with you...>~<
I think about my present and future. I searched many awesome artworks and tutorials,company and studio, realising I'm really really tiny. I'm getting not enthuse for what I'm doing currently. I can't do what i want to do. I feel like many little obstacles are making my plans upside down. The unsastifying result, making my mind fly to the words "give up". "Give up",I never spell this to my heart. May be it is not giving up, I'm escaping. I'm losing confidence.
I wonder, what I actually want to do, and what I like to do, I mean in art. What is my job in my future? Am I going to draw comic? or concept art? or making diy based on my illustration knowledge? I'm worrying and start to hate myself why my skill, my speed and my idea is still not up to the mark.
Then, I recall what lecturer said to us. It is not the question you can't make it, it is the question do you want to make it. Yes, I want to make it. So, just do it! To success, we must always improve ourselves,attitude, knowledges, skills and more and more. Be responsible to your decision. We need not to worry if we are really good. It is normal to worry about future, especially at this level, but why not we do it and put many effort on it rather than worrying? Time is precious. Appreciate the good opportunity.
Now,the thing I need to do is to improve myself. New cc, is generating...
Don't forget to love yourself and people who love you too.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
tag!
1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
^^
2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
new day^^
3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
long time din take photo,forgot...
4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
no...u knew it xp
5.Will you ever donate blood?
haha...underweight! and i'm not ready for it
6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
good friend la
7.Do you want someone to be dead?
of course not, evil deeds....
8.What does your last text message say?
Happy birthday,daddy^^
9.What are you thinking right now?
my assignments T.T
10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
definitely yes...
11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
12 on the bed, chat till 1 sth with sis...
12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
guess wat,i'm wearing sb pj shirt
13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Ya
14.Who was the last person who text you?
syn
TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1. ayam ( update ur blog leh...)
2. cicak ( update ur blog oso leh...)
3. kaffy
4. elise
5. alex_sio
6. tifi
7. uncle ron
8. reena
9. 531
10. niewei
15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
......she hasn't told me the truth...
16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female.
17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
wahahahaha....waliao!!!! impossible!!!
18. What is no.1 studying about?
f4...smart but lazy buddy...
19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1st prsn everyday,some recently lo...some long time din chat...
20. Is no. 4 single?
no gua...r u single? hehe...
21. Say something about no.2.
wow...rock? music n art lover...有性格!
22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
你们受jor咩刺激...hahaha
23. Describe no.9.
sha po! fun n hardworking in her study...
24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
without thinking, buy popcorn and promote this movie to my friends...hahaha....joking la
25. Do you like no.8?
kind of nice friend^^
is your turn!
^^
2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
new day^^
3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
long time din take photo,forgot...
4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
no...u knew it xp
5.Will you ever donate blood?
haha...underweight! and i'm not ready for it
6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
good friend la
7.Do you want someone to be dead?
of course not, evil deeds....
8.What does your last text message say?
Happy birthday,daddy^^
9.What are you thinking right now?
my assignments T.T
10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
definitely yes...
11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
12 on the bed, chat till 1 sth with sis...
12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
guess wat,i'm wearing sb pj shirt
13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Ya
14.Who was the last person who text you?
syn
TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1. ayam ( update ur blog leh...)
2. cicak ( update ur blog oso leh...)
3. kaffy
4. elise
5. alex_sio
6. tifi
7. uncle ron
8. reena
9. 531
10. niewei
15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
......she hasn't told me the truth...
16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female.
17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
wahahahaha....waliao!!!! impossible!!!
18. What is no.1 studying about?
f4...smart but lazy buddy...
19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1st prsn everyday,some recently lo...some long time din chat...
20. Is no. 4 single?
no gua...r u single? hehe...
21. Say something about no.2.
wow...rock? music n art lover...有性格!
22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
你们受jor咩刺激...hahaha
23. Describe no.9.
sha po! fun n hardworking in her study...
24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
without thinking, buy popcorn and promote this movie to my friends...hahaha....joking la
25. Do you like no.8?
kind of nice friend^^
is your turn!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
thank you,dad.
前几天，我一直在想父亲节的这一天我会对我爸说什么-ya，父亲节快乐。说这句话，我不快乐，我爸也是吧。
我们很久没有谈话。一个星期忙起来或许见不到2次面，即使谈话，也可能只是在工作上的范围。 想想多久没一起吃饭，没一起看戏，没问我学校的事，真的很久了。看到朋友和他们的爸爸有说有笑，听到他们有趣的故事，我和我爸为什么不可以这样。有些会给爸爸唠叨，就会开始破口大骂，埋怨。我会希望我爸会和我多说两句话。
今天早上，起来又见不到你，你又早出了。
发简讯几乎是我们唯一联络的方式。我鼓起勇气，跟你说了我的心中话：
daddy,happy father's day. H1N1 is now serious spreading in m'sia, must take care of urself. We chat less and less day by day, I want u to know more about me, as i do. Can v chat more after 2day? 2 sentences better than none...at least we try...gambateh, my baba^^
等了一会，手机简讯声响了。该不会又是一句ok吧?
没想到我爸好坏，叫眼泪流出来凑热闹：
谢谢你，tq. U can talk anything to baba.Have problem just. What so ever u can always share with me, i'm very understanding but keep silent only, k?
Dad,thank you.
This is very simple,no present, no celebration, but a meaningful father's day to me.
我们很久没有谈话。一个星期忙起来或许见不到2次面，即使谈话，也可能只是在工作上的范围。 想想多久没一起吃饭，没一起看戏，没问我学校的事，真的很久了。看到朋友和他们的爸爸有说有笑，听到他们有趣的故事，我和我爸为什么不可以这样。有些会给爸爸唠叨，就会开始破口大骂，埋怨。我会希望我爸会和我多说两句话。
今天早上，起来又见不到你，你又早出了。
发简讯几乎是我们唯一联络的方式。我鼓起勇气，跟你说了我的心中话：
daddy,happy father's day. H1N1 is now serious spreading in m'sia, must take care of urself. We chat less and less day by day, I want u to know more about me, as i do. Can v chat more after 2day? 2 sentences better than none...at least we try...gambateh, my baba^^
等了一会，手机简讯声响了。该不会又是一句ok吧?
没想到我爸好坏，叫眼泪流出来凑热闹：
谢谢你，tq. U can talk anything to baba.Have problem just. What so ever u can always share with me, i'm very understanding but keep silent only, k?
Dad,thank you.
This is very simple,no present, no celebration, but a meaningful father's day to me.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
你愿意为我改变吗？
我的心一直住着两个人。一切都揭穿了。
我想跟之前的他说声对不起，我伤害了他。
看了的朋友，我知道你们会骂我，为什么这样？
一脚踏两船!!
我只想说，感情不能勉强，我希望你们会明白。
我认识他已经四年了，在一起半年，我真的很爱他。
我希望我的选择不会错，希望你们支持我，帮我改变他，好吗？
给你：
我的第六感说服我，这次我又bingo了。
没错，你又从外国寄来了一架飞机模型，这次是意大利的。
我也不知收到多少架了，
美国、英国、加拿大、香港等国家的，我都有。
你啊，真的很难约。时常都要到处飞，忙开会，
有时候就算约好了，却因为班机延迟，而不能赴约。
你好久没陪我了。
不过我很体谅你的工作，
所以我一直愿意等你。
那天我在msn问，
不如我们自己试试飞机的引擎，反正你也拥有一架私人飞机？
而且我也没坐过，
你也常说要安排时间然我体验在空中飞翔的感觉，
你却狠心让我苦等这一天。
你一口气说好。
我说: 真的吗？这次没骗我？安排好了吗？
你笑了，说你下星期放假，可以陪我。
我也笑了。
我真的满怀期待，和你在一起，
享受我们的二人世界。
难得有一天我们可以一起约会，
一起驾着飞机，
看看早晨的美丽，贴近绿色的心灵，
感受即将消失的清新空气，
欣赏微风吹过的白云，静悄悄的千变万化，
享受阳光的呵护。
现在又泡汤了...
我在想，你真么那么忙啊？
开会真的比我重要吗？
我说你，你就笑笑: "对不起嘛..."
我还可以忍到今天，看来我真的很爱你。
现在，我却质疑。
我们认识时，你的魅力带走了我的心跳，
我愿意劈腿，伤害了他的心，
全因为你。
但是我每次看见你送我的飞机，我想，
我的选择正确吗?
我背着所有人的眼光，父母的反对，
选择和你在一起。
值得吗？我都一直认为值得。
之前的他，不管对我很好，
我还是毫不留情的向他捅了一刀又一刀。
别人说，我是贪你的钱，所以才贴近你，
我知道你不是那么想。
现在，一切都变了。
我不懂我还能撑多久。
你愿意为我改变吗？
你就是这样，笑笑地，你有心要改，却改不了。
我是认真的。
你愿意为我改变吗？
.
..
...
....
老杺，不要再放我飞机了啦!!!
天天酱多会跟周公开！
今天起不来，明天就早点起来跟我去跑步啦!!!
哈哈...不要打我...XD
(我没有一脚踏两船啊~~~我很专一的，
拜托不要乱讲啊，我只是制造效果而已～～～)
我想跟之前的他说声对不起，我伤害了他。
看了的朋友，我知道你们会骂我，为什么这样？
一脚踏两船!!
我只想说，感情不能勉强，我希望你们会明白。
我认识他已经四年了，在一起半年，我真的很爱他。
我希望我的选择不会错，希望你们支持我，帮我改变他，好吗？
给你：
我的第六感说服我，这次我又bingo了。
没错，你又从外国寄来了一架飞机模型，这次是意大利的。
我也不知收到多少架了，
美国、英国、加拿大、香港等国家的，我都有。
你啊，真的很难约。时常都要到处飞，忙开会，
有时候就算约好了，却因为班机延迟，而不能赴约。
你好久没陪我了。
不过我很体谅你的工作，
所以我一直愿意等你。
那天我在msn问，
不如我们自己试试飞机的引擎，反正你也拥有一架私人飞机？
而且我也没坐过，
你也常说要安排时间然我体验在空中飞翔的感觉，
你却狠心让我苦等这一天。
你一口气说好。
我说: 真的吗？这次没骗我？安排好了吗？
你笑了，说你下星期放假，可以陪我。
我也笑了。
我真的满怀期待，和你在一起，
享受我们的二人世界。
难得有一天我们可以一起约会，
一起驾着飞机，
看看早晨的美丽，贴近绿色的心灵，
感受即将消失的清新空气，
欣赏微风吹过的白云，静悄悄的千变万化，
享受阳光的呵护。
现在又泡汤了...
我在想，你真么那么忙啊？
开会真的比我重要吗？
我说你，你就笑笑: "对不起嘛..."
我还可以忍到今天，看来我真的很爱你。
现在，我却质疑。
我们认识时，你的魅力带走了我的心跳，
我愿意劈腿，伤害了他的心，
全因为你。
但是我每次看见你送我的飞机，我想，
我的选择正确吗?
我背着所有人的眼光，父母的反对，
选择和你在一起。
值得吗？我都一直认为值得。
之前的他，不管对我很好，
我还是毫不留情的向他捅了一刀又一刀。
别人说，我是贪你的钱，所以才贴近你，
我知道你不是那么想。
现在，一切都变了。
我不懂我还能撑多久。
你愿意为我改变吗？
你就是这样，笑笑地，你有心要改，却改不了。
我是认真的。
你愿意为我改变吗？
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老杺，不要再放我飞机了啦!!!
天天酱多会跟周公开！
今天起不来，明天就早点起来跟我去跑步啦!!!
哈哈...不要打我...XD
(我没有一脚踏两船啊~~~我很专一的，
拜托不要乱讲啊，我只是制造效果而已～～～)
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