friends are wonderful~

When you are in happiness, there is someone called 'Friends' who would share and enjoy your stories. 'Friends' laughs with you, plays with you, crazies with you and does the wonderful things that you never done in your life.

When you are in sadness, there is someone called 'Friends' who would let you cry on his/her shoulder and heal your broken heart. 'Friends' listens to you, hugs you, supports you.

When you are in the darkness, there is someone called 'Friends' who would pull you out from the deepest hole,and even jump into the hole and face the darkness together with you. 'Friends' advices you, helps you, loves you.

Thank you to all of you who care and always be my side when i need you. I'm glad because I have you guys to color my life. Sometimes, my words, my acts may let you angry, feel impatient, I'm here to say sorry. However, when the time i need the power of friendship, you guys are the shinning stars. Even though it is just a simple message, i can feel the sincerity and the power.

Don't worry guys, I'm okay. It is a process. It is a learning. It is another level. Life is still goes on. When it is gone, just let it go. There are many wonderful things waiting for me to achieve, to learn, to enjoy. Cheer up!^^


Love u guys! muackz!!

放手

8月25日,晚上11点，我们选择放手了。

没有懊悔，没有怨恨。


或许爱来得太早，但是它依然给了我们需要的勇气。
以后会想念，会流泪，
但每一次流泪后我会笑得更灿烂。
因为千变万化的回忆，是活得更好的理由。

感谢你，曾经牵我的手。

今夜，我才真正地在你心底的秘密花园绕了几圈，悲惨吗？呵。。。
大吵大闹，不是我们的作风。
虽然冷静地放手，但毕竟也是另一种伤。


七夕的冷风在嘲笑？还是安慰？不重要了。


不管怎样，我们还是挽留友谊。


祝福你，也祝福我。

值得

年少轻狂的我们都想为自己留下很多的第一次。第一次往往是最慌张却最诚心诚意的。

有时候我们想做的事都不定得到每个人的支持，可能他们会认为我们只是浪费时间随口说说，可是我们在背后策略的都是为自己的生活点缀一点点的感动。

我们有时会保持沉默，是怕太多的意见会让我们失去了那份快感。最后才让你知道，会让你体会到我们的用心，认同我们的想法，融合我们的世界，享受沉默背后的惊喜。

~撒上一层层的诚意~

结局可以拍烂手掌，可以疯狂大笑，可以泪撒心灵，可以无奈叹气，更可以冷言冷语，狂风暴雨。。。
听到别人给你的掌声，我们多了一份肯定；
和大家一起狂笑，我们是毫无掩饰，做回自己;
让眼泪流过你的心灵，你拥有沉默的感动，
我们无奈叹气，至少我们尽力，累了也无所谓，依然继续；
面对着冷言冷语，我们会更加努力。

两个字: 值得。


有时候你想做一件事情，不需要考虑太多，问一问自己，值得吗？值得就去做，考虑得太多，会失去最纯真的心。享受第一次，有时候最有智慧的人也未必懂得。

~好不容易哦~

朋友，谢谢你们当了我们2个小时的part time白老鼠，见证了我们的第一次。吃起来还蛮像石头的...哈哈哈...


ah yee n etek, 生日快乐！^^

不变的态度，跌了再站起来也会停步

人生有高有低，
高潮时，要把握机会，
低潮时，要思考，为自己制造机会。

面对着电脑，手不停地画，
目标只有一个，一定要过关。
无论有任何的困难，都要把这一切划上句点，
不完美也好，却没有遗憾。

这一夜过去,我尽力了，你却在这时候止步，
我预料着逃不过这一节。

担心你。
有了一次，就会有下一次。
有时候你的举动让我血液循环，有时候我面目表情，有时候很疯狂，
每一天都不一样，
唯有一样没变，只要一天我们还在这里，
你有困难，我一定会尽力帮你过关。

你说，不必担心我，我没事。
你认为我会放弃吗？
或许你从小到大被过度保护，
有时候遇到小小龙卷风，就是那个样，
皱眉头，眯眼睛，抓头发，乱喊乱叫。。。
以前觉得没什么，日子久了，麻木了，现在却开始反感。

我不太懂。很难吗？
我的口水应该把你疲累的身躯淹没了，剩下你脑袋的迷宫，
让你用我给你的bonus，慢慢闯关，走出迷宫。
机会不停地和你招手，你没跟他们握手拥抱，
意味回眸。
就这样，跌倒了。跌了无数。

你站起来，需要适应的时间比人多。
思考，你有，可是走不出来。
每开始适应后，
恶性又再次侵犯，你又再次抵抗不了，
用回同样的策略，享受同样的结果。

不是每一次都那么幸运，
困难是难非难，在于你怎么去衡量。
思考得多，却没有标准的重量，
只会让我们止步。

这一次后，你要逃跑，
逃出19年来经营的保护区，体验长大，
留下更多脚步的烙印，而且每一步都要那么值得回忆。

加油。

every dream is an omen

I dreamed. The dream is still vivid,i still remember the important part, because it is related to rat, me, my love partner, my best friend, and even famous singers. I think that is a message for me, so when i woke up, i quickly search it online to interpret it. Mum said the the message behind dream u dreamed in the morning is usually very accurate.

My dream: 1st, very funny. i dreamed about AVRIL LAVIGNE! It seems like i'm watching mv. She was rowing boat to the seaside. It was an island. There was a constructing building. There were stalls selling food. Then, Avril gone,my friend came. ONe of the stall was actually using cream to make flowers,some beautiful things.Then, I said to my friend:" very creamy!" (rejecting)

Then day turned dark. Both of us walking all along the road, chating gently. Walked and walked, suddenly got function. We walked in. Then I saw zhen. I was trying to ignore, like very emo.

We went toilet, funny, my friend enter the man's toilet. Luckily, no one inside. Then I gt sms from zhen. is like " we need to talk". Then, in our chat, he said i change to be less talkative recently. What is very funny is, he suddenly turn into 潘玮柏, saying hi to AKON at the stairchase. Then, I said nothing and walked away to toilet.

In the toilet (this is the climax), there was something jumped to my shoulder! It was rat! I was holding it, and couldn't let go. I tried to scream loud, but the voice was not coming out! I don't know whether i was bitten by rat, then i let it go, now only i screamed... Then i woke up.

And you know what, the dream interpretation, it is quite accurate...

These are the interpretation,i'm lazy to conclude it all:

Rat:

A rat is a sign that negative influences are undermining your vitality. Dreams about rats and mice usually reflect the worries which are "gnawing" you. Seeing a rat: you will go through some unpleasant experience with other people. If you are bitten by a rat in the dream, be aware that one of your friends is determined to ruin your reputation. If you catch or kill a rat, it is a warning about trouble in your love relationship or friendship.

To see lab animals in your dream, suggests that an aspect of yourself is being repressed. You feel that you are not able to fully express your desires and emotions. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to experiment with your fears, choices, and beliefs. Try not to limit yourself.

Best friend :

If there is some situation or incident that has happened recently then the appearance of a best friend maybe very much linked to that. But if that is not the case then their appearance maybe symbolic. In such cases the best friend can often symbolise your ideal situation or preferred outcome.

Beach:
To see yourself working on a beach shows that you will soon be involved with a job, or project, that will be demanding of you in both time and effort. If you are just relaxing on a beach this shows that you value the calm feelings that family get togethers lend to you, and if you see yourself sitting on a beach and letting the sand run through your fingers that shows that you are running out of time on something important due to idling your time away.

Building:
If the buildings you dream of are stately and majestic you could have to much ceremony in your life and not enough everyday good people attitudes. If the buildings are beautiful with lots of green lawn around them then are you destined for a life of plenty. Should the buildings be dilapidated and in ruins then this will show that you will have business or love problems with the likelihood of loss very high.

Boyfriend:

Dreaming about your real-life boyfriend can mean he's on your mind for a particular reason right now. Pay attention to what's happening in the dream for cues about your thoughts and feelings toward your boyfriend or the relationship.

Singer:
To see a famous singer in your dream, represents harmony and some divine influence or vibrations. It indicates glorification of the human spirit. Consider also your general impression of this singer and how those specific qualities may be triggered by someone or some situation in your waking life.

wooooowwwwww.....

It is accurate that i have somthing worry in my mind. i dream about my friend who is also facing mostly the same thing with me. I'm unable to fullfill my desires. Tons of homeworks making me crazy.I'm hot temper recently, not good people everyday. I didn't go out with my bf to celebrate 1st anniversary for some reasons and i feel not really happy with it. God is telling me. I shouldn't limit myself.

Somtimes, don't ignore ur dream, it mb a msg to u.

bored...

Whenever we are talking about haunted house, my pbsm gang will be chating it tremendously. It was very unforgotable. The years before pbsm did it, haunted house was incharged by scout. And in 2006, our application was proved. That was the 1st time for pbsm, sure we wanted to make it the best to prove no only scout can make it,but we are, and better than them(students always think that sb's pbsm is lou zi...). That was exhausting, but luckily, we have a very excellent team,always come out with awesome ideas and designs, responsible and very dedicated. I really miss the moments...It was very very fun when we scared people until they cried,and that means our haunted house is very successful,even until now, we are still the best. After we graduated, we always hope to see our juniors do better than us.

Today is sb's canteen day,and I went with etek and lalat just to see how is the haunted house going this year. Cicak sick and monkey works, so not going. When we step in, lalat kept searching the toilet. haha,she went here and there, downstair blok d 's toilet locked, then went upstair, still locked, after she went 3 or 4 corners, then only she successful found the unlocked toilet!XD

Outside haunted house,what a long queue! yes, not at all surprising. we just decided to get in when the "ghosts" are tired, haha... Walking around the school,chat with our teachers, the school is different. Students nowsadays are no disciplined and like kids. It was mess! I don't mean that they can't play around, but can they follow and respect the basic sch rules? They are really like kids... And the sch mural,oh god...i beh tahan lo...it is not creative, not impressing and is messy. I know, most of the students don't like to draw mural, so just cin cai la.And you know, really cin cai dao...Ya,I know I'm art lover, but I'm understanding and not expecting the students to draw very very geng, just can they be a bit creative? Just don't make it the whole sch's mural are almost the same style! Don't tell me "i'm not creative".If I ask u,whether you do research and really think about it, u sure die standing.

That's fine. Then we saw something really "mengesiasuikan"(cicak created), the scrawled mural! I knows this is normal for some schools, but for us,we think that that is embarrasing and students are uncontrollable! And then I asked my sis, she give me a very good answer:"that is student's message wall"! Waliao eh...

Wasting our time there, bored...if not for haunted house,we already go somewhere else,better than staying there. Finally, no more people queue up,so we entered the house. Ya, very dark, and we were a bit scared at 1st. But then, we laughed and laughed at the ghosts,it was funny... it was about 1 minute,rm5 flied... It was not impressing us, Anyway,u guys still scared people until cried successfully. Good job, but still can improve.^^ 

In conclusion, what a bored canteen day...=.= 

another level

Recently, I'm kinda losing my patience. It seem staying away from me these days. I speak loudly, crack back when sis and mum grumbling about me. I got many things worry in my mind, so seem like nothing suits me. I'm easily to get impatient with my family's act, friends' deed, and even myself.

Holidays...I spent too much on entertainments. Or maybe I don't want to face the assignments, it is exhausting. Now left one week to finish it. Oh devil, u must be enjoying ur moment. I'm glad to spend the precious time with you...>~<

I think about my present and future. I searched many awesome artworks and tutorials,company and studio, realising I'm really really tiny. I'm getting not enthuse for what I'm doing currently. I can't do what i want to do. I feel like many little obstacles are making my plans upside down. The unsastifying result, making my mind fly to the words "give up". "Give up",I never spell this to my heart. May be it is not giving up, I'm escaping. I'm losing confidence.

I wonder, what I actually want to do, and what I like to do, I mean in art. What is my job in my future? Am I going to draw comic? or concept art? or making diy based on my illustration knowledge? I'm worrying and start to hate myself why my skill, my speed and my idea is still not up to the mark.

Then, I recall what lecturer said to us. It is not the question you can't make it, it is the question do you want to make it. Yes, I want to make it. So, just do it! To success, we must always improve ourselves,attitude, knowledges, skills and more and more. Be responsible to your decision. We need not to worry if we are really good. It is normal to worry about future, especially at this level, but why not we do it and put many effort on it rather than worrying? Time is precious. Appreciate the good opportunity.


Now,the thing I need to do is to improve myself. New cc, is generating...

Don't forget to love yourself and people who love you too.